The Dark Side of Me..

I wake up and find a shadow
a shadow as dark as the night
a shadow that is hardly visible
only somehow it is to me, when to others it might

might barely be noticible
''then why is it to me?''
is the question i ask myself
when to it, others are obsolete

probably they aren't bothered enough to notice
but it matters to me and it will change my course of life

well why will it not
when all these years it has walked by my side

right next to me
always hidden either by dark
or simply transparent in light
yet it was there, to me stark

it obstructed my vision
it hindered my decisions
sometimes it even got me through
as a totally different person

somebody i wasn't
somebody i didn't recognise
someone so evil couldn't be me
but such is my dark side

when there is something it really wants
it gets through me in ways unimaginable
but now i won't let it have that power
i like it when it is crippled, not at all stable

not totally parralysed i want it to be
bt not totally powerful either
i want it to have strength enough to crawl
because i ain't no angel, i don't wish to be all good either

i like it with a little evil streak
but i don't want it to hover
so let this shadow vanish for now
as only for now i like being sober ;p