The Terrorist

"There is no revenge so complete as forgiveness."


The vast green
The open skies
Life was such a pleasant surprise,
Bright sunny mornings
The fresh breath of spring
The clattering of raindrops waking me
From my pleasant dreams

My family was a precious gift
To be treasured at all cost
I saw the rich smile of the fading day
Which lingered on in my thoughts
It was not to last...it was too perfect to be true..
This was my greatest fear..
the bitter truth that I knew...

Every spring is followed by a fall,
But..
I never knew this one would take my all....

Darkness has no path,
It follows no direction...
On that fine day, it came knocking my way..
It was unexpected..
Unanticipatting and carefree was me..
Evil has no limits, no boundaries entraps it...
It spreads its wings
everywhere...
There is no stopping.

I saw them,
Running around, toys of death in their hands...
Smelling out
every source of happiness..
And obliterating all innocence,
Ignoble, impassible men...hiding in the silhouette of their own dreadful past..
No reason...no logic...
Just stomping past...

We hid in a corner of our house...
Hopeful as hope was all we had..
But it was not the will of thee..
And they found us entrapped...
I saw hiding in a corner..
The debaucheries and atrocities on my own father..
My mother ran screaming helplessly
For the life of her son...


Selfless act,
But the audience was not apt...
She could only plead
Heart of stone...black blood..
I don't know why they left me,
Would have been so much easier for them and for me..
But they left, a bleeding heart, a broken soul..
My world had fallen apart..
Scattered all around in small parts..
I had no choice,
Revenge burning through my veins,
The clouds of hatred and disgust
Clouded my only escape..
I took a pledge..
In my 16 yr old mind...
I wont let them laugh it off..
Will make them pay every single dime..
Sentiments and judgment should never be mixed..
It has dire consequences that can never be fixed..

As I took upon myself to put everything at stake..
I had lost all, my family my childhood...
I thought I had it, to no more
Be the bait..

That day was one of rejuvenation for me..
I wore the dark hooded mask...
Didn’t know whether it was to hide from the innocent or to hide from thee..
Couldn’t face myself, I turned my back,
Could feel my soul bleeding..
And the blood was black..
We were few,
But we were in command..
It was raining in the dark night..
Even God was crying on our evil plan...
I saw the happy faces around,
Enjoying themselves,
just as I was when it was all taken away...
Made effervescence...

Other started the deadly facade as I watched..
I broke down,
Couldn't think,couldn't stand anymore..
No, don't test me..test me no more....
Once again evil had its eyes set on me,
I was standing with a man
Begging at my feet, searching for some sign of humanity
Hope or sanity left in me..
The other pushed me on..
Urged me to go for it,
To take the life that was not mine to take

I pointed the crafty pet of Satan at the man's head..
I was in a state of oblivion,
I was shivering I was quivering..
I had it in me no more..
I was just a naïve child..
Enraged and who couldn't control his own mind....

As the coxing grew louder
My heart came in my mouth...
I was gasping for every breath..
My vision was blurred, tears filled my bloodshot eyes..

My mind and heart..
Fought the great battle between good and evil...
Killing a man, portraying my own reflection...
Is like killing your soul,killing it whole..

I had the choice, I was his God..
The noises grew louder..
As my body came back to senses..
I had taken the decision
I had made my choice..
The dilemma was over...
As instinct took over..

“to err is human, to forgive is divine”

I held my breath and fired the shot..
It was done, it was over..
I had killed the innocent man,but..
It was me who fell over...